About 3 weeks ago, my name was mysteriously find its way to PPD Kulai Language Department and landed in the Kulai District Teachers Debate Team 2008. Actually tak la mysterious sangat. I know who proposed my name. But let us stick to the mysterious part ek.
Then, I met the team. A bunch of English teachers serving in Kulai district. A really fun group to be with. I learn a lot from them. Seriously. The truth is, I've been waiting for my chance to go to meetings ke, workshops ke so I can meet other English teachers out there. So, I was scared, but was thrilled when the opportunity came.
We spend 5 days for the practice. Then the !st round came. We were meeting Pasir Gudang district. We won. We were happy.
Sadly the next round, the quarter finals is one day after the 1 week school holidays. Today to be exact. I drove all the way from Kaki Bukit Fraser, rest for a while, and sped off to Taman Putri for the final and my only rehersal. I spend the night kat Taman Putri.
We went to Kluang to meet Muar. Sadly, we won. True. We were hoping to lose actually. Heck! We wanted to lose. I was not pating attention when the speaker made the announcement. Aku macam "hah? Pedia?"
Kenapa aku tak nak menang? Sebab dah tak larat wei. Imagine every single day talking about motion of today, wheather it stands or not.
But truth be told. I hate winning because of the toll it had taken on my life. Rasa macam topsy turvy je hidup nowadays. Bukan I hate debates. I loved it. I know I'm good at it. Tapi the emotional strain and its effect to my personal life memang la cannot take it anymore. I am tired. Physically, mentally and emotionally. Penat la. But the worst part of it, when I am on stage, I feel like I belonged there. I loved every single 8 minutes of it. Loved it! But I just cannot take it. I just want my life back.
I loved what I am experiencing during the debates and its journey. But I regreted the day I said "Yes".
MUSINGS
ON 2008 GENERAL ELECTION
Bangun2 tidur, ibu bagitahu yang BN Selangor tidak berjaya mengumpul 2/3 kerusi untuk memerintah this state. Means officially Selangor ialah negeri pembangkang sekarang ini. Means that mungkin dana negeri akan tight sikit sebab negeri pembangkangkan selalu tak dapat funding from central government.
Tapi, amid the anticipation ni semua, aku wonder. Before this night clubs kat Selangor mesti tutup pukul 12. Now, boleh operate as usual lagi ke? New license memang macam tak la kan. tapi existing night clubs. Then license for serving alcohol? Akan abolish terus ke? Hmm..interesting la nak menanti and mengexperience the next 5 years ni.
ON SEKOLAH
Ada dua kelas aku telah di'take over' by a practical teacher. Biasalah, time practical ni maybe all teachers tend to speak super fast. Macam aku dulu-dulu gak la. Ada dah almost 10 datang jumpa aku pasal tak faham langsung apa yang happening in class. Aku pun dah tak tahu macam mana lagi nak cakap dengan that fella. Maka anak-anak murid. Sabar ya. Tak faham datang jumpa saya.
Tapi kehadiran cikgu-cikgu practical ini menyebabkan semangat anak-anak murid aku goyah seketika. 3-4 kali datang mengomfirkan yang i am to stay, bukan practical teacher.
ON THE HOUSE
Dah 5 bulan aku menyewa with beberapa cikgu lain. Tapi the last few weeks memang mencabar mental and spritual strength aku. Ada ke patut tut tut tut. Pastu tut tut tut. Agak-agak lah kan kalau nak tut tut tut. Tak salah pun kalau dia chip in sekali kan. Tapi nak wat camne. Allah jadikan dia cantik bersih wajahnya supaya hati dia yang hitam tu dapat dicover. Kalau tak cantik, muka berjerawat, hitam, idung pesek, agaknya memang tak ada nilai di mata manusia. Ni sekurang-kurangnya adalah value sket. In the end aku and Cikgu Roket nekad keluar rumah. Sewa rumah lain. Ingat aku seorang saja rasa. Rupanya ada orang lain pun sama. Jangan kata kami yang duk serumah ni. Maybe la ada rasa bias yang melampau. Cikgu-cikgu sekolah aku yang datang rumah pun merasakan benda yang sama. Apa cerita?
Bangun2 tidur, ibu bagitahu yang BN Selangor tidak berjaya mengumpul 2/3 kerusi untuk memerintah this state. Means officially Selangor ialah negeri pembangkang sekarang ini. Means that mungkin dana negeri akan tight sikit sebab negeri pembangkangkan selalu tak dapat funding from central government.
Tapi, amid the anticipation ni semua, aku wonder. Before this night clubs kat Selangor mesti tutup pukul 12. Now, boleh operate as usual lagi ke? New license memang macam tak la kan. tapi existing night clubs. Then license for serving alcohol? Akan abolish terus ke? Hmm..interesting la nak menanti and mengexperience the next 5 years ni.
ON SEKOLAH
Ada dua kelas aku telah di'take over' by a practical teacher. Biasalah, time practical ni maybe all teachers tend to speak super fast. Macam aku dulu-dulu gak la. Ada dah almost 10 datang jumpa aku pasal tak faham langsung apa yang happening in class. Aku pun dah tak tahu macam mana lagi nak cakap dengan that fella. Maka anak-anak murid. Sabar ya. Tak faham datang jumpa saya.
Tapi kehadiran cikgu-cikgu practical ini menyebabkan semangat anak-anak murid aku goyah seketika. 3-4 kali datang mengomfirkan yang i am to stay, bukan practical teacher.
ON THE HOUSE
Dah 5 bulan aku menyewa with beberapa cikgu lain. Tapi the last few weeks memang mencabar mental and spritual strength aku. Ada ke patut tut tut tut. Pastu tut tut tut. Agak-agak lah kan kalau nak tut tut tut. Tak salah pun kalau dia chip in sekali kan. Tapi nak wat camne. Allah jadikan dia cantik bersih wajahnya supaya hati dia yang hitam tu dapat dicover. Kalau tak cantik, muka berjerawat, hitam, idung pesek, agaknya memang tak ada nilai di mata manusia. Ni sekurang-kurangnya adalah value sket. In the end aku and Cikgu Roket nekad keluar rumah. Sewa rumah lain. Ingat aku seorang saja rasa. Rupanya ada orang lain pun sama. Jangan kata kami yang duk serumah ni. Maybe la ada rasa bias yang melampau. Cikgu-cikgu sekolah aku yang datang rumah pun merasakan benda yang sama. Apa cerita?
